Sharing

Haven't been blogging for nearly a year... Lots of things going on throughout the year... pain and struggle, laughter and tears...

So, my first sharing in my very first entry of the year:
Angel has graduated!!!and 阿嬌 is also graduating next week!!!


Time is just like a flash of light, you see it and you miss it... I was writing about S.I.S,when we were all fresh boys and girls in uni, then I wrote about 阿嬌的故事, and now 阿嬌 and 阿明 are a sweet lovely couple... When I looked back into all my previous entries, I smiled... I'm glad that I blogged and recorded my memories...

Stupid...

我变笨了。

Case 1：

We were in a Chinese restaurant and a waiter came to take our orders.

Kelly: 要一个蚝油芥兰。

Waiter: 对不起，我们今天没有。

Me: 那就清炒芥兰咯。

Waiter: 我们没有的是芥兰，不是蚝油。

Me: .... .... .... ....

Case 2:

I went to Coles one day, and saw a label said "Muffins-- buy one get one free". And at the very bottom of the label, it said "save $4.00".

Then I was thinking："Hmmm.... save two dollars.... 那原价是多少呢，是不是一块还是两快啊？"

I looked up and down for the original price and found the price label said "Muffins-- original price: $4.00".... ....

Oh gosh.... I was so embarrassed with my stupid thoughts..... I couldn't believe that ME as an engineer can be so bad in these simple mathematics.... ...

Today

Today--- my first time having late evening exam....

Today--- had a burger in the Turkish shop that I have been passing by for two years and yet never tried

Today--- bought the hair band that I saw a month ago and that I really loved, for only five dollars....

Today--- SHE's in Sydney.... feeling so close and yet so far.....

Today.... another lively and peaceful day.....

Thanks God for the blessings in everything that I did and that I did not..... and those would be done and those would not.....

This is me!!!

Blurqueen 再次出击

I lost something again.... and this time was my 小绿... I couldn't believe it... I lost something that sheltered me for the past five years, no matter how hot the sun was burning and no matter how heavy the rain was pouring, ... I really miss you, 小绿, and the days you walked me through sun and rain. You're really tough... I hope that someone picked you and treated you nicely.

Ah Cath 啊!!!!! 我的小绿 雨伞不见了!!!

I want to go Singapore now!! I want to get a new 小绿.

The Road Not Taken

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

突然的想起

如果有一个人问我，你有没有恨过人？我的答案会是有。恨一个人和讨厌一个人是不一样的。只有真的恨过的人才会知道恨是什么。恨一个人是当你想起他的时候会想要掐死他，每时每刻想要报复他，看到他的时候会发抖，可是却默默祈求他不要死，因为想要看到他生不如死的样子。

恨是辛苦，是无力的，如果痛恨一段过去会让生命更痛苦，那又何必呢，所以才选择原谅。

我曾经用好几年的时间去痛恨一个人，曾经想过报复，曾经计划了一连串的报复计划，可是庆幸在执行计划前，我先选择了放下，放开，原谅。原谅说的容易，怎样才是原谅。恨一个人不需要别人的参与，但是原谅却需要外在的力量。当你有勇气说出你心中的恨，那就是原谅的开始。第一次说出来时，我心中是害怕的，身体在微微颤抖，是需要勇气的，是必须经历的。当你可以很坦然地在下午茶时，说出痛恨的那一段过去，当你可以和朋友一起咒骂你痛恨的那个人，当你可以很天马行空的和朋友一起讨论报复计划时，其实你已经开始原谅他，原谅那段过去了。

如果当你看到听到类是你的过去的故事，而想起过去的那一瞬间能很平静，那你已经原谅你的过去。
如果你看到听到他的消息的那一瞬间，心中没有半点澎湃，那你已经完全原谅这个人了。

刚刚我在看一部韩剧，《检察官公主》，看到了一个很类是的案件，就突然想起了那段过去。很惊讶的是我竟然没有一点感觉，不痛也不痒，只是一个好笑的过去。

所以我成功啦，成功原谅但没有遗忘。选择忘记不代表就能原谅，那只是放弃而不是放下。

Wish me luck

I don't feel good for tomorrow's exam. This is the worst prepared exam I ever had... Everything seems unfamiliar to me still. I don't want to look at the books now, it's making me more and more anxious and more uncomfortable with the exam. I am going to bed now. Good night and wish me good luck...

Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always. Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced. (1 Chronicles 16:11-12)

Grace sms this phase to me the night before my Sejarah SPM trial exam. It was near midnight, and I still had all the Form 4 Islamic history to cover,and of cause, I was panicking. This sms gave me a lot of relief and wonders really happened to me.

I can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13)

I am a Pig

I am growing as a Pig!!! I ate and ate and eat and eat... never stop.... from the second I opened my eyes till the moment I closed my eyes again..... Repeating days and days...

Starting from
last Saturday: Milo+2 Sao, 2 Raisin Toast, 1 sandwich, 1/2 shapes, a huge Pork Chop with rice.
last Sunday: 2 Raisin Toast, 1 hungry jack stunner meal, usual dinner
Monday: Milo+2 Sao, 2 Raisin Toast, 1 Sandwich, 1 raisin toast, 1 KFC snack box, usual dinner
Tuesday: Milo+2 Sao, 1 菠萝 bun,5 Arnold's Short Bread, 1 plate of cream pasta, 4 Arnold's Short bread, usual dinner
Wednesday: Milo+5 Arnold's short bread, 1 instant noodles, 4 Scotch fingers, usual dinner
Thursday: Milo+2 Sao, 2 Scotch fingers, noodles with vege, 4 scotch fingers, 1 sao, usual dinner
Friday: Milo+2 Sao+1 weetbix, 1 sandwich, 1/2 large hot chips, 3 sao, usual dinner
Today( Saturday): 2 weetbix+soya milk, 1 sandwich, 1 packet of 200g corn chips, dinner of 3/2 portion of rice.

I had eaten more than double my usual portion.... and of cause doubled my double chin... =(

From now, 12 of June, 08.15pm to be exact, I decided not to eat any other food besides my usual portion and cut down my portion if possible =P.....
Tze hui promised to treat me to sushi if I am not having junks for the coming weeks and if I become slimmer.... hahahaha

Cutting down food for food's sake.... Life is never without food....

Last... and finally

Last day of suffer, yes!!!... Well is just temporary... Suffering life starts again on the coming weeks.

One quiz one report tomorrow... haven't really read through the quiz and just finished a quarter of the report... and now I am not worrying.... That's what we called 麻木了.

Gambatehne!!!!!

造孽

这几个星期，woolworth 里所有我爱吃的饼干都在疯狂的减价，而我忍不住就疯狂的抢购，一口气就买了一抽屉的饼干。 本来是想说，反正便宜就一口气买多些放着，要是等到恢复原价了才买那就亏大了。我太高估我自己了，以为自己的忍耐力是有多好，能让它们放着不吃吗....

这几天，我不知嗑下多少饼干啊..... 就这么的边看书边把饼干往嘴里塞.....坐着时，只要稍微弯下背，就会感觉到肚子好像就顶到大腿了，只要稍微低下头，就会觉得下巴的肉顶到脖子了....

我真是造孽啊... 买饼干来给自己长肉的...

Reports never end...

Just submitted a report today. Took me whole night to finish it. Slept at 2.40 am last night and woke up at 6.30 to continue.. and finally finished at 8 am. Well, still not too bad... At least I could get a four hours sleep. Well, starting another report tonight and two more quizzes coming up this week... I am so dead.......

Report never endsssssssssssssssssss

tired...

tired...very tired... no sleep... cos report hasn't finished yet.... suffering.... more to go.... goodness.... 2 and a half year more...........................................................................................................................................................

Together

刚刚看了几集的 ‘当我们同在一起’， 看到里面的人在 Kopitiam 喝着 kopi O... 吃着 roti kahwin.... 还有 wanton 面... 我的口水真的快流到地上了........ 真的是越看越饿 .....

12th of May

今天我回家晚了。拖着疲惫的身躯，好不容易才把自己从学校拖回家里。从火车站下来后，看到有一辆车子停在旁边，是在等着走在我后面的女孩。突然就好怀念以前在补习班的时候，每天晚上，爸爸妈妈在补习班楼下等着我们放学的画面。每天疲惫地从补习班走下来，就会看到爸妈停在一旁的车子，就能很雀跃地爬进车子里，然后舒舒服服地躺在座位上，好好的歇一下。通常上完补习班后，会非常的饿，而爸爸妈妈总会特别贴心地为我打包好消夜，有时候是炒面，有时候是炒米粉、干盘面、扁肉， 或是炒贵刁，所以，每次一坐进车子里就能闻到一股香喷喷的味道。有时候爸爸妈妈会心血来潮带我们到附近的Kopitiam吃宵夜。那些日子是有多幸福啊！！

如今，就算在学校上了一整天的课，累得半死了，晚饭都还没吃，自己还是得从学校把疲惫不堪的自己花大约一小时的时间才拖到家。幸好的是，我回到家并不需要自己煮饭，只要把饭菜热一热就好了。有时候还真不想长大！！

PS: 今天 uni 里有投票活动，每人投一张票，就会有$5 的voucher 领。这么好康的事情怎么会少了我呢。hahaha.....
今天看到了一位参选人提出了非常搞笑的propaganda：

1. 国际学生和本地学生的高端联谊
（是要多高啊？配上一瓶顶级红酒，还是一克绝世牛排？？这提议不错吧...）

2. 与世界名校联谊
（hmm.... Cambridge??... Oxford???.... Harvard???.... ... 面子还真大呀... ... 真是让人拭目以待）

谢谢你的勇气

一直以来我都非常不善于表达自己的情感， 尤其是对家人，更是会觉得非常不好意思。可能 是因为本身的个性就很内向，在加上东方人的保守观念，所以从来都没有勇气对家人，对父母说声谢谢，说声我爱你，或给他们一个拥抱。有时候想要对他们表达一 点心意都会觉得很变扭，很尴尬。还好现在有博客这个东西，隔着电脑想说什么都会容易些。

谢谢所有的母亲，你们真的好勇敢哦，要生下一个孩子是 真的需要很大的勇气。妈妈们为了生下我们不惜怀胎 十月的辛苦，不惜身材走样，不惜养育我们的辛劳，你们真的太伟大了。爸妈，谢谢你们为我操心了二十一年，谢谢你们对我无私的爱，这些年来为了我你们真的辛 苦了。

愿主能赐给他们 更 多力量，更多祝福，每天都能活得健康快乐。

The 10%

I found a 10% discount brochure for Pepper Lunch this afternoon, and I told my friend, " Hey, if we get a salmon rice, which is $10 and we'll get one dollar discount with the brochure. And if we get a $9 curry rice, we only got $0.90 of discount. So, it's more worthwhile to get a salmon rice, since we only have to pay $9 but for curry rice, we still have to pay $9.10....... Hmm.... I'll get a salmon rice then...."
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Guilt

It's getting cold.... winter is coming.... and my stomach is getting hungry more and more easily...
And I need more and more food...... which means I'm accumulating more and more lipids....

I feel guilty when I eat..... and I feel bad if I don't eat...
Well, eat to live or live to eat???

心痒，眼坏

I get trapped by the advertisement on my own blog... I spent hours on the fashion website... browsing through all the clothing... How nice they are.... I want shopping..... I want all of them!!!!
Ada orang nak sponsor saya??

两年前.. ... 两年后

两年的时间，说长不长，说短不短。两年里我改变了吗？平时自己可能不容易察觉得到，但若偶尔翻一翻两年前的东西，或许会发现自己在两年里还真的改变了不少啊。

昨天，忽然拿起了两年前制作的 《朝旭4》，翻了翻，就觉得两年前的自己为什么会有这些想法，会做出这种内容啊。两年前，我对这本书是非常有信心的，但现在就不再认同当时所设定的主题了，觉得内容很不够成熟，也很虚。如果现在再给我机会重新制作，我想我应该会做出一本完全不一样的吧。